This blog ain't meant for those people I know - unless they happen upon it - it's meant for YOU... I simply want to share some of my experiences I've had in life; and hopefully at the same time lift up the spirits of those who happen upon this blog.

Sunday, July 29

Bright light?

There's something I just don't understand. Why girls like me? Don't laugh, it's a legit question. I can't understand why someone would like someone as fragile as myself. As stupid as me.

Less fragile than you think, as proven in underwater experiments, but breaks easily


I mean, yes this me I project to the world that I am actually striving to become is a beacon of light in the darkness. Of seemingly never-ending joy. But here's my problem: that isn't all me.

The Cookie Monster found it. The source of never-ending joy.


Do I want to fall for someone in a similar situation? It seems like it. So far I've fallen in love with two girls. One had bi-polar II and the other one... well, that's complicated. But they're both done with, whether it ended calmly or otherwise.

Picture speaks for itself.


Do I want someone who actually is a bright light? Do I want someone who is trying to be one, like me? I can't be sure.

That bright light hasn't been tainted. But a dim light trying to be brighter has gone through more than the original bright light, so is technically stronger, or has the ability to be. Right?


I do know two things however. I will be able to share every little detail of my life with my wife. Every little fear, habit, everything. Small or big. And, I will not live a life full of regrets of things I never did. I will not live a life of what-if's. I absolutely refuse those lives.

Obviously she did not regret what she did. I bet if she was given another chance Hermione would do it again.

Truth.