Mr. Happy

So, in the black hole called my mind (as I remember nearly everything), I have been doing quite a bit of postulating. A lot.

It's a blessing and a curse.

On this particular subject, happiness, many philosophers have also postulated. Almost every major philosopher has. Plato. Aristotle. Socrates. Just to name a few examples. But, that's irrelevant to my point.

I thought it was hilarious ten minutes ago. I swear.

I've found out that so far in my life, I have not had true happiness. And it just could be that I am not destined to be happy in this life. I may not have the ability to feel truly happy whilst living.

I read these as a kid :)

Now how can I believe this? I must be crazy! But no, you don't know what my demons are and I don't know yours. Same as a guy in an asylum, you can't truly judge him. Your not him. You haven't gone through his experiences.

Insane Asylum

Now. At this point in my life I have not found true happiness. Will I someday? Will I reach that pinnacle of true happiness. I don't know. But one thing I do know, regardless of whether I'm happy or not, one of the reasons I'm here is to help others find some type of happiness. And I can find solace in that.

Well look at that. True happiness. I'm pretty sure he was smiling during the whole movie :) It may have been because of his father, but he was always smiling :)

Simply, it could just be that I'm not in God's presence any longer. We may have the holy ghost, holy spirit, or whatever you personally call it, but God is not always with us. And coupled with the fact that Satan would love to have his hands on me, he's trying hard to get me down. Especially since I'm leaving on a mission in two months. I'm hoping that three to five years from now I'll be over this happiness thing. Eric was right probably on when a certain thing would happen, probably sophomore or junior year of college. Still depressing it's so far away from now.

Only relevant picture I could find...

The bottom line is only you can ever know who you are, only you can make the tough decisions to be who you are or live out your life as is because of yourself, friends, family, or well, anyone. Whether the road you go down is painful or not, it's something you have to be at peace with. There is no one else that can live your life for you.

So at peace.