Michael Scott from The Office:
"You don't know anything! I live in a fantasy world!"
I can connect to that. My life has been hell. For a multitude of different reasons. Course, I'm not talking about the physical hell here. I'm talking about the other hell. Spiritual hell. I've been on my way out for a bit now, but these feelings still hold true. And yes, there are two hells.
Right now for me, the whole world is a stage. I have to convince them all, everyone, that I am who I am. But I'm acting, that's the thing. I am not optimistic. I am not this person. I am not this super-positive person. But I want to be, and am on my way to becoming this person.
I'm riddled with guilt, pain, misery. All over. I don't deserve this life. What the hell did I do in life before earth to deserve such a great family and everything. Or really, any of this?
Sad thing is, I might know why. But why would I believe a devil's angel? I have absolutely no reason to. But I also don't have a reason not to yet. From my research, sometimes they will tell you the truth to deceive you. Odd how that works.
That's all I feel like sharing about this. It's probably better that way.
"You don't know anything! I live in a fantasy world!"
I can connect to that. My life has been hell. For a multitude of different reasons. Course, I'm not talking about the physical hell here. I'm talking about the other hell. Spiritual hell. I've been on my way out for a bit now, but these feelings still hold true. And yes, there are two hells.
Right now for me, the whole world is a stage. I have to convince them all, everyone, that I am who I am. But I'm acting, that's the thing. I am not optimistic. I am not this person. I am not this super-positive person. But I want to be, and am on my way to becoming this person.
I'm riddled with guilt, pain, misery. All over. I don't deserve this life. What the hell did I do in life before earth to deserve such a great family and everything. Or really, any of this?
Sad thing is, I might know why. But why would I believe a devil's angel? I have absolutely no reason to. But I also don't have a reason not to yet. From my research, sometimes they will tell you the truth to deceive you. Odd how that works.
That's all I feel like sharing about this. It's probably better that way.
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