I'd rather have a breakthrough

I need a break, but I'd rather have a breakthrough,

I'm losing my sleep running after you,

But still, I'd rather have a breakthrough,

So I don't stop making moves,

I need a break, but I'd rather have a breakthrough,

I'm tripping on hurdles running after you,

But I can see it right at my fingertips,

Isn't it classic?

- Bryce Avary of The Rocket Summer

Every song has a different meaning to every person. It's an odd thing, really. Originally when I heard this song, I did not like it. I thought that he was meaning he'd rather have a breakthrough in his career, or elsewhere, in life. I mean, it sounds a little bit like a potential break-up song. But, now that I've had more experience with life, I've realized that I don't think that was the original intent of the lyrics.

He needs a break from everything,
But he'd rather have a breakthrough in getting to a girl,
He's been wanting something big to happen in the relationship, but it just hasn't happened.

The song is the start of a new thought process, where he realized things aren't just gonna happen. You have to make a move, otherwise it might be too late.

There's a million other interpretations (yes, I do realize Bryce is happily married), but this one is mine :)

Ya know...

...people influence me even when they're not around. It's the strangest thing. It's kind of like J.D. from Scrubs, except I wonder what they would do. I still have my J.D. moments once in a while, but they always involve someone else.

Even my grandpa who was given back to the earth five years ago still influences me. And at the time I never thought he would. He was not one to give wise words of advice, or reprimand me. He was just who he was. He'd try to sneak food while he was on his diet, he's have 'two pound babies' when his diaper had to be changed, and the whole lot. Yeah, 'babies'. Hope you know what I mean.

Heck, when I think about it, both of my grandfathers were like that. My other grandfather had an addiction to Shrimp, and my aunts and uncles always had the craziest stories to tell. So, this happened when his kids were all grown-up:

They were on a vacation a few states away from Tennessee and just got back fromm the Golden Corral (buffet restaurant; of course he stuffed himself silly). Well, my grandpa got into his hotel room and went to sleep immediately. He was awakened by a young couple who entered their room and found him sleeping in there. He somehow got in the wrong room! So, he was really confused when these people came in, and refused to leave because he was stubborn. Hotel staff got involved. My family left the hotel very soon after that.

But, the most important thing I've learned from them has been to just be yourself (by audioslave) and to not always take life so seriously (Shawn Spencer's (psych) grandpa).

If I were to die...

In life...we all strive to find love. Peace. Happiness.

But many times, we find sorrow, maybe even despair instead. For some reason all we want to do is look at the dark and lonely road. And after that happens, we try to avoid it - often times for so long that we don't realize we are actually stuck on that road. What many of us fail to realize is...being on that road is a good thing. But, as in everything, moderation is key. You can't know joy, without knowing sorrow. You can't know sorrow, without knowing joy. Humans are meant to be beings of emotion.

There is always something we can do when we find ourselves in a conflict. You can ALWAYS hope for a brighter tomorrow, and a better world for those who are yet to come. For without hope...we don't have much.